why?

Hello

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Jonah complex

There's a name for this: the Jonah Complex, Maslow's term for fearing your own highest possibilities. He took it from the biblical Jonah, who ran from the destiny assigned to him. Apparently common enough that he thought it deserved its own label, so you're in decent company.