The brand of Christianity you describe is not salvific; it is Christian in name only.

The sign Jesus gave as proof of his claims was that he would die and rise again in three days. That is a concrete event that took place in time and space -- in history.

Since you are averse to history, then it's illogical to "choose" Christianity simply because it "feels most real" to you. Who cares how you feel about it? Your feeling is much, much less reliable than credible historical evidences and sound logic and philosophy. Feelings are notoriously unreliable, unlike well-documented history. <sarcasm>Besides, maybe there's nothing to your standing. It is all made up. Maybe there is no such person as Jesus of Nazareth.</sarcasm>

It's okay and normal to struggle sometimes with what to believe, but that's not the same as saying no one can know what is true (that itself is a truth claim).

Our faith is not grounded in what feels right or resonates with us, but is rooted in reality, the real world.