I'm exhausted, idk what am I doing here and everyday feels like I'm expecting something to just fucking take me. One of the things that makes me more angry about this is that I don't have a good reason to feel like this, and I can't explain it because anyone believe me and they think that I'm joking. I'm fucking scared of sleeping because it could catch me an earthquake or I will dream about how stupid I am in every aspect of being a human being.