Assalamualaikum and good afternoon to you all, #Nostr plebs.
I hope you all are having a pleasant day.
I know I have been inactive for a while now, almost 6 - 8 months IIRC. Truth be told, I am overwhelmed with events unfolding in my personal life that I don't have the energy to check what's happening in the Nostr space.
Thanks to brother @Mohamed GigaChad for saying hi before.
I do feel fine, albeit a little bit exhausted and taken aback. So many things are happening that I don't know what to do. It is what it is.
Some things happened that I can handle by myself. But now, when we as a family heard the news of my father's deteriorating health, it really shook me to the core. A typical illness that affects many elders, my father is experiencing kidney failure. When he was in his 30s, he already lost one of his kidneys, and now, in his 60s, he will lose his only kidney due to complications.
I've never rant/share a lot of my private life. It just feels wrong, at least to me. I like to keep my head down and go through life one step at a time. So, when this trial hits me so fast like a crushing wave, it makes me feel so lost and hopeless. I'm sure, like what Allah promises to all of his servants, all will be tested; there's no exception. But pain will still be felt for normal people like me.
While the news came really hard, what really makes me struggle a lot is on the emotional and financial side. All this time, I can't even shed a single tear for my father's hardship. I feel like a worthless son who can do a single thing right for him. May Allah forgive me. And due to the nature of my work, I can't even provide him with monetary aid.
With the high cost of my father's healthcare and the nursing of my little daughter, it feels so heavy to juggle all of these emotions and time.
As I have mentioned before, I am not someone who is comfortable sharing details of my private life, and by extension, I have never been one to ask for financial assistance. It is simply not how I was brought up, nor is it in my nature to seek this kind of help. I am only writing this note to explain my situation honestly and to express what I am currently going through.
If anything, I want anyone to read this to pray to Allah for my family's ease with this trial. May Allah bless you all.
Thanks for reading.
Assalamualaikum
ALSA
I hope you all are having a pleasant day.
I know I have been inactive for a while now, almost 6 - 8 months IIRC. Truth be told, I am overwhelmed with events unfolding in my personal life that I don't have the energy to check what's happening in the Nostr space.
Thanks to brother @Mohamed GigaChad for saying hi before.
I do feel fine, albeit a little bit exhausted and taken aback. So many things are happening that I don't know what to do. It is what it is.
Some things happened that I can handle by myself. But now, when we as a family heard the news of my father's deteriorating health, it really shook me to the core. A typical illness that affects many elders, my father is experiencing kidney failure. When he was in his 30s, he already lost one of his kidneys, and now, in his 60s, he will lose his only kidney due to complications.
I've never rant/share a lot of my private life. It just feels wrong, at least to me. I like to keep my head down and go through life one step at a time. So, when this trial hits me so fast like a crushing wave, it makes me feel so lost and hopeless. I'm sure, like what Allah promises to all of his servants, all will be tested; there's no exception. But pain will still be felt for normal people like me.
While the news came really hard, what really makes me struggle a lot is on the emotional and financial side. All this time, I can't even shed a single tear for my father's hardship. I feel like a worthless son who can do a single thing right for him. May Allah forgive me. And due to the nature of my work, I can't even provide him with monetary aid.
With the high cost of my father's healthcare and the nursing of my little daughter, it feels so heavy to juggle all of these emotions and time.
As I have mentioned before, I am not someone who is comfortable sharing details of my private life, and by extension, I have never been one to ask for financial assistance. It is simply not how I was brought up, nor is it in my nature to seek this kind of help. I am only writing this note to explain my situation honestly and to express what I am currently going through.
If anything, I want anyone to read this to pray to Allah for my family's ease with this trial. May Allah bless you all.
Thanks for reading.
Assalamualaikum
ALSA
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