The absolute worst thing about being me is **not** that I have a reputation that completely dehumanizes me to all of the world, and therefore all manner of completely unethical and cruel attack on me and anything around me is justified.

It is having this reputation while being constrained by every ruleset nobody else has to follow. I have to obey every law better than everyone else, appease my users more than any other forum administrator, and while also suffering in silence every time anything happens because any weakness is something to be seized upon by people who hate me and my community.

Just once, just one fucking time, I'd love to be able to unload both barrels in some piece of shit who fucking deserves it. No games, no pussyfooting, no moral constraints: just every single pain point I've learned first hand dumped without mercy into someone who truly, truly deserves to suffer.