Afwan! Naah, why would you do anything "half-assed" in life? What does "pushing it too hard" even mean? And WHY would you hold back? ;) Keep going with your great work, and I wish you a splendid day. I personally love going ALL IN (pay the price) and giving my best. Those pure moments are truly a relief for my body, mind, and soul. What do you have to lose? Fear nothing, except God!