@nprofile1q... I struggle with something like this. My mood baseline tends to be low unless I'm solving someone else's issues, usually with my tech skills or intellectual abilities somehow. I live disaster to disaster, whether its my work clients or family or friends. Only when people come for my help, and I manage to help them, do I feel like "huh, I'm kinda good eh?". I wish my brain would learn to just accept that using the proof that I've done things and helped people thousands of times before, but no, it might do that on an intellectual logical level, but not on an innate feeling level; if it's not high on a recent triumph, then I'm just a useless nobody who's letting humanity and the whole world down, withering his life away without aim or purpose.