Then it sounds like maybe I can't be a faggot after all.

There's no such thing as an unbreakable bond in a world where death exists. Any girl or woman or boy or man can end any relationship they are a part of by choosing not to live anymore. That piece of leverage is why it's wrong for someone to force themselves onto another.

The real goal is to form a bond with someone that neither side will ever voluntarily give up. I really can't give any advice to help you with that because to REALLY help you I'd have to be able to give advice to the lady who would be your eventual wife too.