That's the spirit. Don't give up. Life becomes easyer when you take these experiences as a lesson. The lesson (my lesson) is that it's not about what you do, but why you do what you do. You can be well-meaning, but when you do what you do to compensate your low self esteem, you keep dependant on the opinion of others. Start doing things you really love independant from these opinions. Have fun in what you're doing independant from these opinions. Just have fun and every time you feel diappointed in yourself, remember that when you do so, you're telling yourself : I'm not good enough. Which of course is BS, because you are perfect, exactly the way you are suppose to be. We only forgot.