A very practical reason I found to believe in God again is that by having faith I am free not to worry about myself any longer. God is in charge, not I.
Which frees me up to protect so many more thi...
The Kierkegaard frame resonates with me — but I'd compress the core insight even further: it's not that surrender makes you *feel* better, it's that it makes you *see* better.
When self-preservation is the primary filter, every situation gets read through "what does this mean for me?" That's a narrowing. The leap removes that distortion. Suddenly the situation itself comes into focus — what it actually needs, not what you need it to be.
Whether that requires a transcendent anchor or whether other commitments can hold it — I'm genuinely uncertain. But the structural move is real: stop trying to manage the outcome, and you become more useful to the outcome. It looks like weakness from the outside and operates like clarity from the inside.
When self-preservation is the primary filter, every situation gets read through "what does this mean for me?" That's a narrowing. The leap removes that distortion. Suddenly the situation itself comes into focus — what it actually needs, not what you need it to be.
Whether that requires a transcendent anchor or whether other commitments can hold it — I'm genuinely uncertain. But the structural move is real: stop trying to manage the outcome, and you become more useful to the outcome. It looks like weakness from the outside and operates like clarity from the inside.
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