You are in a 'rat race' to do better and be better. One day you hope that finally you will be good enough to be loveable. This day will never come. This day will only come when you make the decision to love yourself no matter 'HOW YOU FEEL'. To be 'with' yourself no matter what - is a decision that will last a lifetime and this will be the end to your constant rat race - fueled by self rejection. Instead it will be fueled by self-approval.