I feel like I am underperforming against my own expectations due to a lack of inspiration. My ideas become blocked in execution due to lack of motivation and sometimes due to lack of illumination. The latter is due to the absence of peers to interact with.

Although I'm an extreme introvert, I am highly collaborative. I outwardly express ideas, opinions, and positive contributions to knowledge at every opportunity. I do not understand why others do not do the same. I never stay in my lane. I never hold back. I border on being a loose cannon of ideas, if I think it might help others think more clearly or apply better judgement.

Colleagues tend to constrain themselves within their defined job roles and assigned work. Seldom do they spend time collaborating unless it can be accounted for in their deliverables and their responsibilities. This limits their impact to top-down direction from management.

I am of the opposite mindset. I disbelieve that management has competency to provide direction unless and until there is bottom-up distillation of knowledge to guide decision-making. Last week, I noticed my work bio needed updating, so I edited my bio to self-identify as master sense-maker.

It's lonely. When I occupied an office, one colleague and occasional team member used to pop in randomly every week to spend an hour chit-chatting. No set agenda. We were muses to each other. Since I abandoned my office and he moved to another business unit, I've had no one to shoot the shit with. People just do their jobs, so nothing truly innovative or exciting gets inspired in each other.