@Professor Groyper It's a mix of self loathing and attention seeking.
You hate yourself but then suddenly people are complimenting you rewarding the bad behavior. And instead of doing the self love work thats hard and slow you keep terraforming the outside getting more attention from others never the validation from yourself.
Then you wake up from the haze see yourself as a monster and bang you off yourself.
So being kind to these people is actually just murdering them more slowly & society