My husband nostr:npub1jrx2fk666k5nt8vgak9xwyxlgcwh8fl9rvpwvvcpdthuqkcnptrqdfhtaq had a similar experience to your last paragraph and might be able to tell you what worked better for him.
I'd suggest finding a Bible reading plan and reading in a group. Reading with others gives you the opportunity to discuss ideas with them too, it's much better than trying to figure things out alone.
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