felt the same for a moment yesterday when I opened my eyes on yet another gloomy cloudy cold day here in the Netherlands... but isn't this thought completely stupid? There will never be a moment like this... opening my functioning eyes to see the world, moving my functioning body to face the bullshit storm...
As an artist I often imagine myself dancing to chaos and meteors crushing all around..
Made coffee, put some incredible music, bought some sats because I was worrying too much about the price and then I went to work.
Don't get me wrong, I hate my job but my life goal is to be able to live from my art without ever compromising what art means to me. That goal alone keeps me moving and gives meaning and color to my life.
Do everything to fix your sleep, from watching the sunrise or no eating and blue light before sleep.
Your body will thank you the next day.
Good luck my friend!
(This is also a reminder for me, I am no perfect)