i am stuck in a country withbhostile internet, a corrupt government and instihutions that are trying to extract from me when i have nothing, i am severely physically injured and and then on top people who pretend to be my friends are acting like there's nothing wrong. so caughtmup in obsessions and unproductive narratives. itmreally hurts what is going on in my life at the moment. i have some help but it's only enough that i am not sleeping outside. i am not bitter, i'm hurting.