somehow...
well...
with the recent suspension of my discord and therefor losing my friends, basicly most of my social contacts and all...
also considering ai and my general lack of traction to my work...
also many people probably basicly being uninterrested in my work or leaving the art scene...
also me being now a middle aged man past his best years basicly having acomplished nothing of worth...

i am thinkin of looking for new meaning in life...

i probably should delete all my socials too...