i figured out over the last hours since i broke my leg that alot of the pain was actually caused or triggered by especially nicotine. pain from pressure on my heel in the splint, caused by blood congestion and agitation from withdrawals. the caffeine and alcohol both also mess up circulation.

so i'm taking this oppertunity to go cold turkey on the caffeine, nicotine and alcohol.

the pain is incredible, really feels like there's a meccano set inside my calf and i also am discovering unconscious tensing and flinching reaction and deciding to just wath it mostly.

getting a pain killer, idk, some opiate,jab is in the butt...but also tryisg to put that off as long as possible.

they did as "spinal tap" anaesthesia and though they hid the slice and dice and drill and splice from my eyes, the catheter and the table it was slung ontostrained muscles and caused quite severe pain. so imassaged it, rotated it, just did what i could to get through it.

operation took a bit over 2 hours and my lower body was basically paralysed. once the pain fully stopped regisnering... i felt the slices of the scalpel opening up thearea with the broken bones, but by the time theyhad that done it was fully ded.

anyway, just had the pain drug.gonna rest up