Tried so hard during my 20s to achieve FIRE because I hated to work (for a boss)

I drove a Hyundai accent that I bought for $3500 and lived with roommates until I was 30 in one of the most ghetto places in Canada (Scarborough)

Now as I approach 40 (yikes) - my savings should carry me the rest of the way through life without any income.

But Now in a weird matrix where I should be drawing down on my savings and enjoying life, but saving and investing is such an ingrained habit that I feel physically ill spending money, especially in a bear market

But saving to what end? How luxurious does a "retirement" need to be? Spending now while I still have energy feels like a better move than being super rich when I'm 60?

Just thinking out loud while I'm on the can

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