Can we take a moment to acknowledge the fact that as I was holding my phone just now, it randomly started charging without being plugged in.

I noticed that my thumb was resting on the port. I moved it. It stopped charging.

I’m an electric bitch

Hands up all my girlies who say "I don't know" so often that it has become their personality.

And you know deep down that it is not a reverent, surrendered I don't know but an "I'm just a helpless babyyyy with no power" I don't know

It's an I don't know that you conveniently insert into every place where you could be standing in your authority.

It's a feigned confusion that is a cover for the fact that you do, in fact, know. You are highly intuitive. You have always known. And you know what you need to do. 

You just got a bit too comfortable inside of the identity that doesn't want to have to be responsible for holding that. 

Your I don't know has become a subtle, repeated self betrayal. 

Hands up if you're ready to take that mask off. 

#pleb #nostr #spiritualgrowth #truth

Laptop and lizard multi tasker here hahaha

My life and work feels MIRACULOUS after making the following change:

I went to another open mic to play piano last night. It was a different one. A tiny, super packed out little pub.

I am chill up until the point when I walk in and see how busy AND intimate it is.

I can barely concentrate and stare through the barman for a second before gathering myself and blurting out that I want an orange juice, which I never drink.

I almost didn’t go up to the woman running it. I was technically too late. I could have just left it. And it was like a wind at my back that carried me over to her anyway. She said she’d squeeze me in.

Great.

But when we sit down I notice something.

I notice where my mind wants to go and where it has gone the last few times: it wants to obsessively picture the piano keys and play the song internally over and over and over and over again because it’s convinced I’ll forget it. It wants to hyper-fixate on that particular part that I froze on, the last time I played.

It is absolutely DESPERATE for certainty. And I realised how untenable that desperation now was. I couldn’t actually run it anymore. Because it just isn’t who I am anymore.

I am not someone who believes they are gonna forget a song that I wrote, that I have played a trillion times. I am not someone who bends to that kind of mental gymnastics.

It was like every cell of me saw and felt how absurd my mind was being.

And I gave it up.

I handed it over.

And tears pricked at my eyes because this kind of surrender still really gets me.

How simple and beautiful it is to feel the holding on the other side of the mental grip.

Something clicked when I played that night. My hands relaxed more. The expression of the music had space to come through instead of me just white knuckling to get through it.

Every time I have gone to play I wanna walk out as soon as I walk in. Same goes when I read my poetry. It is still utterly vomit inducing.

I actually consider it. I consider what it would be like if I just… walked out. And the pang of self abandonment is worse than the spicy as fuck exposure of staying.

It won’t get easier for me. I won’t let it get easier. That’s not the goal.

The point is that I lean into the edges that I think will kill me and I become more of myself.

My mind gets even quieter.

My body lets go even more deeply.

I get closer to life

Closer to God.

And I get to be in a state of gooey-hearted flow in my day to day, more and more, as a default setting, because in choosing not to collapse into what is easy (walking out of that pub, walking out on myself) I get to experience true EASE.

Every time I actively lean into the spicy spice

the noise in my mind goes down another handful of decibels

the grip in my body melts off

the addiction to distracting myself drops back even further

The fear of failure, of not being enough, of not “living up to the mark” loses its power.

I get more free.

It transfers into my creative work and business
into putting offerings out into the world
into the uncertainty and exposure of it all
into my leadership and the way I show up for clients
into the way I hold myself under pressure.

When I am not protecting myself
I allow myself to be fully supported
and it is the most miraculous and beautiful thing.
And it is what I walk others through.

I hold people through the moments where they abandon themselves to fear, so that they learn how to stay, and keep staying.

Because who you are in those moments
and how you hold yourself
is what sustains momentum
is what creates results in your business
is what allows you to LIVE in flow
and stay connected without flopping in and out.

When you hold this kind of standard for yourself
you don’t doubt your potential
or your ability to fulfil it
it’s not even up for debate

You ARE potential.

Writing was one of the first places where I could access a flow state. 

Teaching, transmitting, facilitating, getting in the zone with clients is another one. 

(Making music + gardening too!)

When you've made the massive and brave decision to turn your flow state activities into a career, you're gonna be asked to face every place inside you that has been conditioned to swim against the flow. Every place where you get in the way of it. 

Entrepreneurs + creatives stay in survival patterns and wallow in stagnancy for years longer than they need to because they fail to recognise the enormity of the gift they've been given: 

To cultivate a whole life, lived in flow. 

It's not for the faint of heart. 

It is thorough.

You will be asked to give up every ounce of self protection.  

There will be nowhere to hide. 

You will have to surrender to your fears over and over again 

But it is freedom like no other. 

It is an experience of life and being alive that most people write off as a pipe dream, that most people don't even allow themselves to want. 

#flowstate #flow #pleb #plebchain #nostr

Whenever your chest tightens
or you feel burning sensations
or your mind is doing defensive somersaults
about your business going down the toilet
or your relationship being out of alignment
or whatever the latest problem du jour is

and whenever you’re just feeling -fear-
without any context

You are accessing creational life-force.
Energy is rising.

You are being invited to rise.

And when you accept the invitation whole heartedly

you create an internal container that the energy can flow through.

When you have the container set up
the energy stops compounding your complexes and insecurities

It stops bottle-necking in your body

And it becomes intuitive impulses
Inspiration
deep, womb tingly knowing
and the impetus to lean into the thing that you’ve been afraid to do / say / be

…and this creates tangible results in your life.

You get a bunch of physical energy back (cannot stress this one enough!!)

Not to mention creative flow

Work opportunities drop in out of nowhere and feel divinely guided

And you receive and expand in a way that feels natural and inevitable

You are the one that directs your energy.

It’s either being directed towards an old survival program

Or it is being directed towards creation

When the beautiful, infinitely valuable gift that is YOUR ENERGY, is being habitually (and often subconsciously) hemorraged into survival programming and avoiding what you fear, you will:

Feel anxious, jumpy and graspy - like you’re constantly checking outside of yourself to feel “okay”

Feel like there is some essential thing that you are “missing” that if you could just figure it out, you’d be where you wanna be

Feel a lack of connection with your vision and mission, despite having built something genuinely meaningful and impactful

and just… not like yourself.

FEELING LIKE YOURSELF
Is the master key

to abundant energy and resources
innovative leadership
and spiritual, emotional and creative freedom

And I’m hosting a free, experiential event that will invite you to directly experience the shift

from your survival identity
to building and holding the internal container for thriving.

Where your next steps are clear

you are present, turned on, inspired, and rising to meet life

you are tuned into the joyful spark of your creativity

and facing your fears becomes SO rewarding
that it is more painful (not to mention TEDIOUS) to believe your fears and stay small.

You have access to something within you that can energetically, psychologically and literally, physically shift from contracting in fear to RISING TO MEET FEAR in seconds.

And skilfully navigating this shift changes everything.

We go live for REMEMBER AND RISE at 4pm on Thursday. THERE IS A RECORDING.

Register here: https://us06web.zoom.us/meeting/register/ecAoa8iTTR-PuUGN9zNQcQ?#/registration

#nostr #GM #pleb #plebchain #selfleadership

I read a post recently slagging off urgency in marketing. I thought it was funny.

Because something I have learned upon unravelling fear-based urgency programming inside my body, is that when urgency has clean and concise energy driving it, it fucking SERVES.

Time IS a finite resource.
Urgency is real.

If you delay transformation when you know it is due, YOU LOSE.

If you don't step across a threshold when it presents itself, YOU LOSE.

If you choose your distractions, personal drama and fears when you had an opportunity to choose yourself, YOU LOSE.

You lose time that you cannot get back.

The perfection of everything still stands.
But using that as an excuse not to move is a fluffy romanticization and avoids reality.

My work is threshold work.
You don't have time to faff.
You don't have time to stay the same.

You don't have time, period.

This is Fear Medicine.

Register for the free transmission WHY NOTHING CHANGES (EVEN AFTER YEARS OF SHADOW WORK) here. RECORDING INCLUDED: https://us06web.zoom.us/meeting/register/fl0UwrawTImlRIxFaX6H1Q?fbclid=IwdGRjcAQPsjpjbGNrBA-yNmV4dG4DYWVtAjExAHNydGMGYXBwX2lkDDM1MDY4NTUzMTcyOAABHggy20S66fUZOjXPGln2j7vexYRXwr1ERPTB5gO3hCoGYsNkeImSdL4aYg8B_aem_w412GVvos1szgb_HNXuHvw

#selfleadership #spirituality #knowthyself #pleb #nostr

I’m watching “Britains most extreme OCD cases” and someone on there described themselves as constantly being affected by a black tar sludge substance that feels like it is entering them.

It just really gets me thinking about how so much of what makes mental illness what it is, is actually dimensional warfare, and we are still in a collective location where a very small portion of us are approaching it from that place.

So an enormous part of the map is missing for the vast majority of people.

Mental health professionals and shamans need to start working together.

#dimensionalwar #ocd #multidimensional #pleb #pleblife #nostr

WHY NOTHING SEEMS TO CHANGE (EVEN AFTER YEARS OF SHADOW WORK)

I’ll give it to you straight:

Nothing seems to change because the part of you scanning for what’s wrong, is running your life.

You are intuitive AF.

You have so much wisdom pulsing inside you.

You are highly sensitive and creative.

You are naturally suited to leadership.

And you are acutely aware of this place where your unadulterated magic is regularly stifled by something heavy and tight.

This is your inner scanner.

Something that has run so subtly and for so long, it has felt like you.

Something that you might not have had clear language for.

Something that feels like it is always on.

You “check” things compulsively.

You feel braced often.

Your mind is busy with what ifs and what needs to be done.

You notice that your energy often feels like it’s blocked up in your chest and solar plexus.

You have a hard time dropping into your womb and hips.

And underneath it is this thing that you haven’t quite been able to name in concrete terms:

The scanner.

Mindset work is a distraction.

Strategy isn’t gonna make it go away.

Shadow work just makes you even more acutely self aware, and if self awareness was the answer you’d have five fuckin PHDs in it by now.

It’s time to go to the root and dismantle the mechanism.

You want to feel more at ease.

You want to be more immersed in the NOW moment.

You want to metabolise your vigilance into sharper intuition.

You want to unlock your next level in your creative work and life relaxed, resourced and rested.

You are:

Successful, creative and intuitive, but are prone to tightening internally - to a sense that you can’t let go.

You notice an intermittent but chronic something’s off feeling.

You have done a lot of self development and trauma work.

You sense that your high sensitivity is being mis-directed into vigilance.

And you are ready for precise recalibration.

Enter:

Why nothing seems to change (even after years of shadow work)
This is a complimentary Fear Medicine masterclass.

We’re meeting on zoom at 4pm on Tuesday 3rd March.

You’ll have access to a 72 hour recording.

In the class we will cover:

• The difference between trauma-driven vigilance and true intuitive guidance, and how to tell which one is leading in your creativity, leadership and life.

• Why ease can feel out of reach even when life is objectively working, and how perception gets distorted by chronic alertness, undermining your success and your untapped potential.

• How the internal “scanner” (the constant checking, fixing, bracing mechanism) quietly runs your decisions, creativity, and relationships.

• The first step to unhooking from the compulsive something is wrong loop so your nervous system, leadership, and creativity can re-align to greater ease and peace.

REGISTER HERE: https://us06web.zoom.us/meeting/register...

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#pleb #pleblife #asknostr #spirituality #leadership #GM

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