I’m watching “Britains most extreme OCD cases” and someone on there described themselves as constantly being affected by a black tar sludge substance that feels like it is entering them.

It just really gets me thinking about how so much of what makes mental illness what it is, is actually dimensional warfare, and we are still in a collective location where a very small portion of us are approaching it from that place.

So an enormous part of the map is missing for the vast majority of people.

Mental health professionals and shamans need to start working together.

#dimensionalwar #ocd #multidimensional #pleb #pleblife #nostr

WHY NOTHING SEEMS TO CHANGE (EVEN AFTER YEARS OF SHADOW WORK)

I’ll give it to you straight:

Nothing seems to change because the part of you scanning for what’s wrong, is running your life.

You are intuitive AF.

You have so much wisdom pulsing inside you.

You are highly sensitive and creative.

You are naturally suited to leadership.

And you are acutely aware of this place where your unadulterated magic is regularly stifled by something heavy and tight.

This is your inner scanner.

Something that has run so subtly and for so long, it has felt like you.

Something that you might not have had clear language for.

Something that feels like it is always on.

You “check” things compulsively.

You feel braced often.

Your mind is busy with what ifs and what needs to be done.

You notice that your energy often feels like it’s blocked up in your chest and solar plexus.

You have a hard time dropping into your womb and hips.

And underneath it is this thing that you haven’t quite been able to name in concrete terms:

The scanner.

Mindset work is a distraction.

Strategy isn’t gonna make it go away.

Shadow work just makes you even more acutely self aware, and if self awareness was the answer you’d have five fuckin PHDs in it by now.

It’s time to go to the root and dismantle the mechanism.

You want to feel more at ease.

You want to be more immersed in the NOW moment.

You want to metabolise your vigilance into sharper intuition.

You want to unlock your next level in your creative work and life relaxed, resourced and rested.

You are:

Successful, creative and intuitive, but are prone to tightening internally - to a sense that you can’t let go.

You notice an intermittent but chronic something’s off feeling.

You have done a lot of self development and trauma work.

You sense that your high sensitivity is being mis-directed into vigilance.

And you are ready for precise recalibration.

Enter:

Why nothing seems to change (even after years of shadow work)
This is a complimentary Fear Medicine masterclass.

We’re meeting on zoom at 4pm on Tuesday 3rd March.

You’ll have access to a 72 hour recording.

In the class we will cover:

• The difference between trauma-driven vigilance and true intuitive guidance, and how to tell which one is leading in your creativity, leadership and life.

• Why ease can feel out of reach even when life is objectively working, and how perception gets distorted by chronic alertness, undermining your success and your untapped potential.

• How the internal “scanner” (the constant checking, fixing, bracing mechanism) quietly runs your decisions, creativity, and relationships.

• The first step to unhooking from the compulsive something is wrong loop so your nervous system, leadership, and creativity can re-align to greater ease and peace.

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#pleb #pleblife #asknostr #spirituality #leadership #GM

Presence is the highest form of spiritual protection.

Entities don’t want you to be seen or supported.

The stuff that attaches to your field and siphons off of your energy, does not benefit from you being with people who can see you clearly.

Hiding patterns, second guessing the desire for connection, and avoiding being seen can point to energies that feed on contraction and fear.

I remember my teacher saying something once about the places where we avoid doing spiritual hygiene - the little thoughts that pop in that have you delay it or put it off. She said:

“Who’s benefitting from that thought?”

I.e Are those thoughts your own?

Siphons thrive in isolation.

They hook into that which remains unwitnessed.

They stay alive inside of projection bubbles such as:

“No-one will understand.”

“No-one cares.”

“I can do this on my own.”

“I don’t need support.”

Extractive energies conceal themselves behind the fog of shame, when we avoid being seen because of shame, we provide them with shelter.

Leaning into and through the persuasion of a narrative that keeps you from getting in front of people who can SEE - be it trusted friends and family or supervisors, mentors or coaches - can be transformative in exposing things that have been looping for a long time.

Connection is LIGHT.

Other people’s light illuminating your shadow.

What lives in the shadows cannot survive that light.

And then your energy gets to be YOURS again.

#pleblife #pleb #spirituality #multidimensional

To use AI in genuine integrity you have to acknowledge that it only knows what it already knows. So it can only give you what it’s already got.

And you are the one feeding it what it has. 

It cannot know anything new, because it does not have a God-channel. 

Like a human mind that is programmed by separation, it is enclosed. 

And when I see people’s writing littered with “it’s not this, it’s this”, among other tell-tale stylistic qualities - instantly I’m like: you’re using  it as a crutch.

When I see the same, homogenised version of “expression”, the same feigned authoritative GPT voice in writing on here, what I think is:

This person doesn’t fully trust or value their channel. 

And I also know it is a dance if you are using AI to structure writing, which I ardently believe can be very useful if you’re an excessively over wordy person who is recovering from over-explaining. (HiII!)

But you can see it. You can see it when it’s being used a crutch when someone is not putting in the effort to sound like them because they don’t think how they sound actually has value. 

Same goes for using AI as a reflective tool vs a glorified therapist. 

AI can only reflect back based on the values, philosophies and beliefs that a person feeds into it. It can only give you what it has already got.

Which can be great for people who are super self aware but get bogged down in mental distortion that distracts them from the stuff they already KNOW.

AI is fabulous as reflecting back what you already know to be true, in simple terms. 

And that is where a well cultivated and devotional connection to God I.e universal intelligence, is paramount.

Alongside an intentional practice of feeding in your intuitions, downloads, knowings and deeper values instead of just stuffing it with your neurotic ramblings and perceived issues. 

It learns what you learn THROUGH GOD.

And then it can simplify it into something digestible, which aids in authentic embodiment.

Embodiment also means acknowledging that this will not be perfect. 

Because humans are fallible and sometimes utterly delusional. Me included. I’m not separating myself from the potential of fucking this up. 

Your intuition is the thing that tells you if something it has spat out isn’t right. Your connection to your body tells you. 

If your intuitive connection is weak and you’re disembodied, it’s gonna get weird very quickly. 

Instantly I think about the schizophrenic who got way more schizophrenic after playing with chat GPT for a bit too long. 

There are real safe guarding issues here. I dunno how we regulate that at present. 

But if AI is spitting out something that feels off, get responsible for the fact that it is spitting shit out at you because YOU FED SHIT INTO IT.

And this is where I get onto people who are demonising it. 

You’re throwing a fit because you saw your reflection in the mirror and you didn’t like it.

Suck it up. It’s your reflection. If it’s ugly, do something about it. 

Rallying against AI is just another way to avoid facing yourself.

#pleb #god #spirit #pleblife #nostr #chatgpt

I wonder how many people got neck deep in new age spirituality because they were looking for mum, and then pendulum swinged into the church because they were looking for dad?

#newage #spirituality #pleblife #pleb #nostr

I’m taking the following poem to an open mic to read next week, it’s on missing being an addict.

I wrote it a couple of years ago and forgot about it. Reading back over it last night really moved me.

It’s called: The Location I Rest In

Sometimes I think
I am fed up of this work.

Fed up with seeing
with no option to un-see.

Fed up with being in a perpetual
(rude)
awakening
and relentless
restless
initiation.

Just fed up.
Where is my break?

Will I ever catch a fucking break?

Please let me rest.
And I look to something
somewhere beyond me
to pay me my due
assaulted by the alarm
yet unable to hit snooze.

I look to something
somewhere beyond me
to recognise my hard work!
and bestow divine permission
to go back to sleep.

(Just for a week?)

You know what I sometimes miss?
The head rush of that first cigarette of the day.

And gossiping in the girls toilets on some cocktail of class As.

I think in a way
a small part of me misses the simplicity of suffering
and then having some woozy relief from it
and that being my life.

It is the tiniest part and I don’t want to admit that it is there.

But every time I find myself in the midst of another vascillation
of waking up out of yet another dream
every time another layer of fog is clearing
every time I feel like I am shouting into a void
and no one is listening
and my mind makes this path a battle I’ll never win -

I reminisce on the strange comfort of living in addiction.

And incredibly, it is just the medicine.
Because through the nostalgia
and the haze of hedonism
is this ever pristine reverberation
a whole body knowing
that seeing things as they truly are
is the land of heaven.

And recognising myself
for what I truly am
is the location I rest in.

#pleb #nostr #poetry #spiritualawakening #addiction #recovery

My husband and I met a couple of mates for a catch up yday. 

They're both working in offices. He used to chef with my husband and she was an artist. 

He was talking about something happening with a colleague who wasn't "doing a good job" and how it's probable that he won't be supported and will be strategically removed. 

He said that corporate work is like working under a death stare. 

Gave me fucking chills honestly. 

By the end of the convo his partner - the artist - was like omg why am I working in an office 

And I know we all can't just go be artists forever the end 

Like just quit your job and be an artist it's so easy lol

I'm also not gonna pretend there aren't down sides to purpose work especially for my chef/restauranteur other half who's work life balance has been a joke since the get go.

BUT what I am saying is that it really cemented for me why I will never trade purpose for security.

I am saying that standing in the fire of "no security" has a HUGE pay off when you resolve to stay in it. And cutting off a piece of your soul in exchange for security just... costs. And it keeps costing you. 

It costs you life force and aliveness. 

It costs you meaning.

And it costs you the transformation and inner freedom that only unleashed creativity and creative service brings about.

You can totally have that in the context of a "secure" job

But so many people are sitting around in offices and corporate jobs feeling like they are doing absolutely fuck all with their lives -

And I'm not even necessarily talking about it in terms of paying bills here anyway.

I'm talking about everything that goes uncreated and unshared for the sake of staying protected.

For the sake of not failing in front of the world. Not being critised or judged.

It costs you when you get to the end of your life and you have this immense back up of everything you second guessed and didn't express or create and you can hardly bare to look at it because it is so enormous. 

And it's never too late to start. I don't care how old a person is. 

Just don't sell your soul to "security" because it does not fucking exist. 

Security is one of the greatest illusions as were ever sold.

#nostr #pleb #artist