nout
· 8w
That resonates, I like that you make the journey and personality your own not relying on someone's interpretation. I know that religion was quite suppressed during communism, so when you went to the c...
I would agree with you that I experienced a contracted version of Christianity.
After I left, to continue my journey alone, I did grasp at other religions for some sense of structural stability. I studied a number of them, large and small, and attended the various gatherings. Each rasped against my spirit in the same way Christianity had. After each attempt the quiet whisper became a little more obvious and was saying something like “what you seek is not in religion, it’s an absolute surrender.” A trust fall into the vast bottomless unknowable.
In comparison to that, every ‘ism’ or ‘anity’ is contractive, limited, and acts as an intermediary.
I suspect anyone who’s had a profound moment that led to a conversion or dedication to any religion, had exactly that experience of unbounded, surrendered ‘isness’, ‘forgiveness’, and ‘innocence’. But the mind is so quick to try and label and understand and attach to something in the world as the cause, or the way to ‘get back to that experience’.
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