Noticing when my voice is blocked by shame.
My natural voice is a booming loud voice.
This was suppressed during growing up, for various reasons.
Now my default voice is the soft (fake) non-confrontational voice.

Yes, that's why I'm smiling 😀 I'm actuallysmiling at the _future you_, who is looking back at me through memory — remembering me and this smiling face, when I told you...whatever it was.
So _this_ will be the face you remember, if you happen to grasp the depth and gravity of what I now know. And so I'm agreeing with the astonishment of the future _you_, in the expression of mine that you remember when you realize it for yourself.
It's crazy to think about. You can see my reaction but I can't see yours.

RE this autistic critiquing of pleasantries

Bro even the most friendly and genuine guys you know were describe it as greasing the wheels. Pleasantries exist for a practical reason. And dummies like me didn't understand that the same principle applies about not giving the appearance of harm or intent to harm to other people. With my daughter, she appears to rush into harm's way, stopping just at the very precipice. And I had to teach her to not even look like you're about to do something wrong. In the same way, when introducing and conversing with people, you want them to be assured that you are a good and genuine and not harmful person. You don't want the question to even be in their mind. This is a grace. And it is appreciated.

Is quick wash actually the good wash?
More power, more chooch?

Write the date on the bag ***before*** you put the food in it.

Vibe cosing. We are the managers now. Telling the little people what to do.

he was
a ballerina
of the mind

he was
a ballerina dancer
of the mind

If you know the origin of "chips" based in cooking things in oil, you understand why they're called "chips", but also it explains why the British call them "crisps", and arguably that's better.

Cherry puddin’ in my boot!