@nprofile1q... In times like this, be with the people that care about you and love you as you are. Spend those times venting and crying every little aches your heart be beating about right now. Even though it's painful and the sense of hopelessness is strong, they will fade away. And never ever hate yourself for any of this and love yourself Holly. You're a talented artist and in times, express your vulnerability to us and showed you're a hella decent person beneath the art...just take that to heart