Damus
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Probably dead by now.

Relays (7)
  • wss://relay.damus.io/ – read & write
  • wss://relay.nostr.band/ – read & write
  • wss://relay.primal.net/ – read & write
  • wss://nos.lol/ – read & write
  • wss://relay.momostr.pink/ – read & write
  • wss://nostr.bond/ – read & write
  • wss://relay.snort.social/ – read & write

Recent Notes

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You can tell a website is vibe-coded when it's possible to use non-existent values for internal parameters (using DevTools to capture the PUT request then re-casting it with a different JSON body) with little to no sanitization. I just set a "crimson-600" color scheme (when there's no such color scheme, the closest being "rose-600") for a blogging platform out there. Not just the back-end "recognized" the value (returning a JSON whose "success" is "true"), but now the "Color" drop-down is empty-valued and showing a white rectangle (because there's no such thing as ".theme-crimson-600" across their CSS definitions).

Hey, I missed the opportunity to set "crimson-666"! 😄

Or, maybe, the Little Bobby Tables color theme, as in `...{"color": "nothanks\"' OR 1=1; CREATE DATABASE BOBBY; -- 666"}}` (oh, SQL injection... this reveals my age I guess... yeah "I'm old, Dean, very old"; vibe-coded projects likely use MongoDB or similar... ouch, this is also old. Maybe the today's "SQL injection" would be injecting prompt instructions, using Unicode tricks, for whatever their... ahem... "agent" is, so their "agent" can, for example, recommend them using cyanoacrylate to stick the cheese to the pizza slice, or reminding them of their daily stone intake needs as recommended by the "nutritionist" LLM)

Now, seriously: why don't they use RGB/HSL/HSV values then use CSS's `color-mix` to derive the palette from any arbitrary color freely informed/chosen by the user? This way I wouldn't try to literally XSS your site only to set a fucking color. I like red, _pure_ RGB red, the rgb(255,0,0), #FF0000, not your pre-determined... *checks notes*... "rose".

Okay, I'm returning back to... "rose-600". Whatever.
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Guess I'm spending too much damn time on Nostr, and I'm likely being influenced by those things such as Bitcoin and "agentic AI". I just created a self-custodial BTC wallet (to which extent is "SBW" good for this purpose? That's the only self-custodial BTC wallet app I found on F-Droid) and I signed up for rentahuman.ai, this one just for the lulz of it.

Oh, and to whomever developed rentahuman.ai, your website is so full of bugs (is it "vibe coding", I guess?). For example: the "ai tasks" section doesn't recognize the currently authenticated session, with the button "dashboard" being replaced by "join" and "login" (and individual tasks' details, which are truncated with ellipsis, can't be expanded).

#rentahuman #clawdbot #openclaw #moltbook
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I stumbled upon a couple of websites "start a fucking blog" and variants, advocating for people to have their own blogs. They even list some recommended hosting and blogging platforms, many of which are free as in free beer. Great!, I've really been looking for alternatives, let me take a look at their terms and guidelines considering my own kind of content:

- prose-sh: explicitly prohibits "gore", "nudity, or adult sexual content", "material that is threatening" (my kind of Lovecraft-inspired, heavy/gratuitous Memento Mori could be seen as "threatening").
- maratoa: prohibits "content not designed to be read by humans" (well, if I post something dedicated to spiritual entities/demons/The Goddess, would it be "content not designed to be read by humans"?)
- bearblog: explicitly shadow-bans "Excessively shitty or negative posts", "Subtle digs or vague-posting" and "Passive-aggressive jabs". Also prohibits "spread hate or tear people down" (would anti-anthropocentrism and/or anti-natalism be "hate" and/or reminding humans about their own mortality be a form of "tearing people down"?). NSFW (which likely includes digital drawings depicting scenes of feminine dominance/femdom) is allowed but must be undiscoverable, making it essentially purposeless (an echo chamber).
- nekoweb: explicitly prohibits "pornographic content depicting sexual violence or abuse (drawn or not)" (they likely though of targeting sexual violence from human men against human women, but the vagueness of the phrasing also ends up prohibiting depictions/allusions of mortal human men belittled/annihilated by an omnipotent Dark Goddess or paranormal entity/demoness/succubus, something I like to draw/nod to; even "more mundane" femdom/femme fatalle paraphillic settings involving women beating/harming/humiliating/trampling over a man end up being effectively prohibited)
- netlify: explicitly prohibits "Content with the purpose of causing harm or inciting hate, or content that could be reasonably considered as slanderous or libelous" (again, anti-anthropocentrism could be understand as hate; also could be subjectively considered as "untrue and harmful to (human) reputation"). Also, their line "You are prohibited from using Netlify for the propagation, distribution, housing, processing, storing, or otherwise handling any material in any way which Netlify deems, in its sole discretion, to be objectionable" is extensively broad ("in its sole discretion" = "whatever comes to mind for us to block/ban/shadow-ban"). Even their paid tiers are subject to the same terms so it's not a matter of "hidden, subsidizing cost for freeloaders".
neocities (where I have or, at least, used to have, a blog): I'm quite fond of their line "You understand that information available to you through Neocities may include materials that are unedited, sexually explicit or offensive to you and that your access to such materials is at your own risk. Neocities and its affiliates hereby disclaim any responsibility for or control over such materials". Their stance on "Threats" isn't as broadly-written as the other hosting platforms: "threatens or encourages bodily harm or destruction of property" (while one could allege some sort of "bodily harm threat/encouraging" across the kind of content I create, especially when I explicitly mention my own suicidal intentions and my own de-personalization and hatred to my own body, the Neocities rule is better phrased). Also, NSFW prohibition is nowhere to be found. In practice, however, I didn't have feedback with my Neocities blog. It feels like it's either shadow-banned. And with the recent Bing conundrum (Neocities was deliberately de-indexed by Bing, including the countless blogs hosted there, including my own blog), any content posted on Neocities is effectively undiscoverable (and, thus, pointless for people like me who have no network or "friends" so I could be part of some webring/Web-Of-Trust, instead heavily reliant on search engines for me to be discovered by a potentially (and statistically unlikely to exist at this point) like-minded person).

Welp. This sucks.

Other alternatives also suck:

- Writefreely instances: there are highly-open instances out there with minimal rules, but they're infested with Vietnamite-speaking bots at this point. Others have closed sign-ups. Similar thing with instances from other Fediverse platforms such as Mastodon. Pleroma and Plume have lots of instances with "application-required sign-up system" (thus, closed circles, especially for people whose social relationship abilities suck). I have accounts on highly-open Fediverse instances such as Pixelfed's anar.ch.ist (where I posted very explicit content)
- Nostr: seemingly open and a prominent harbinger of free-speech, but in practice has things such as paid relays (paid with cryptocurrencies), "sentiment analysis" for several free relays, "WoT" mechanism which effectively silences those without enough social connections (good for getting rid of bots, but also affects real people like me who have no friends)
- Geminispace: most multi-tenant gemcapsule platforms (such as Midnight Pub) have prohibitions on NSFW content and/or "hate speech" (which is broad of a term and could be applied subjectively for anti-anthropocentric and/or anti-natalist takes)
- More mainstream blogging platforms: Ghost, Substack, Patreon, Tumblr, Wordpress, they all have extensive prohibitions in place due to their advertisement partners.
- Non-blogging, mainstream platforms: no introduction needed. Facebook, Instagram, TikTok, even X, would likely ban whatever profile daring to post heavily "disturbing", occult art and anti-anthropocentric texts, so not to affect their advertisement partners (as in the Simpson's meme: "Could someone think of the chil...," I mean, "could someone think of the shareholders and the gazillion partners? And their children as well?")

In summary: I have nowhere to go or express because the very things I'm fond of expressing (demonolatry and heavily ritualistic content, anti-anthopocentrism, anti-natalism, nihilism and hard determinism, gory drawings, nods to my own self-harm and suicidal intentions, etc) are "ideae non gratae" virtually everywhere. So I stay on my own, isolated, alienated from other humans, doing art without publishing it.

Tell me more about how "Blogs are very fucking important, because they allow you to own your content", Kev Quirk and Guilherme Magalhães Gall (who made the Portuguese version "Crie a Porra de um Blog" where I first discovered their existences). Tell me more about how I'm the one to blame for my isolation and ostracism. Tell me more about how I must compromise my own worldviews in order for me to "deserve" expressing myself and getting true communication to happen (i.e. neither a soliloquy/solipsistic echo chamber nor a bot-centered Dead Internet, but flesh-and-bone hominids deeply interacting with this hominid who's writing this text and exchanging ideas instead of doing lazy numeric reactions (upvotes/down-votes) to content they stumbled upon by doomscrolling a feed). Should I lost my own authenticity and truly independent values (so to belong to any out-of-the-shelf mundane ideology out there), I'd better die, because the very letting go of one's own authentic views to be absorbed by a hive mind is, in essence, ontological suicide: funny enough, this form of suicide is socially accepted and required from everyone as "an inexorable condition for living in society".
bitcoinlimit · 6w
ok i’ll bite. nostr feels absolutely dead. it’s not just me. a lot of accounts i try to keep up with are constantly posting and getting almost no engagement. maybe it's time to be honest and actua...
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As someone that have been wandering through several digital realms such as the Fediverse (especially Lemmy where I'm used to spend most of my online time), Geminispace, Dark Web (Onion HSes and I2P eepsites), I'd say this is far from being a Nostr thing only, it has been an Internet thing. The Dead Internet hasn't been a theory for a long time.