How much alcohol do you need to drink to stop crying

So I attempted to kill myself a second time...

Something clearly wrong with me.

It's like a wave of everything I hate about myself rushed over me.

I hate my gender.

I hate my body.

I hate my relationships.

I hate myself and still believe no one will ever truly care. Some people may care for a moment and even maybe sad or try and help but ultimately it's like a wooden crutch.

It helps you stand up for the moment but if you keep leaning on it eventually it will snap and decay away and then you'll be gone.

I already cut one arm in the attempt so now I have an ugly scar that's going to form because of it which makes my body even worse.

People have been arguing over a top 10 list of the top 10 games of all times online. I feel like you could approach this in a lot of ways of like are you going off of pure quality are you going off of long-term relevance to the entire industry.

There's a lot of things you could weigh a game on.

However what I think is not up for discussion is that.

Minecraft undeniably has to be the number one game of all time. It hits pretty much every single bar you could think of to weigh a game on

I'm talking prime Minecraft like 2012 Minecraft.

Not only does it have an artistic vision to it and extremely addicting and never-ending gameplay loop and for the time and even to now a very impressive generation feature that allows for almost endless exploration. But even to this day it has massive influence over the survival genre as a whole it's spawned countless rip offs. which some are actually pretty good.

The only thing you could argue and say Minecraft doesn't have is a story but in an esoteric sense the entire story, "is your story" of what you did in your world. You are the adventure which makes a lot of sense considering the ending credits.

I know this sounds stupid but this came to me in a dream.

What if the solution to democracy and accountability is at the end of any term that a person was elected for everyone who voted for them originally has to review them and give them a number rating from 1 to 5.

Each of these determine either a reward or punishment that they receive meaning that no matter what the public has to hold them accountable for their actions?

I know the general flaw is that once you're so powerful accountability doesn't matter and there's not really anything you can do about it but this is just a simple idea mainly for lower level people to stall corruption out a little bit or make it much more difficult on a local scale.

All I want to do is go down to 200 pounds to impress this girl and I'm stuck at 225 or 222.

No matter how little it eat, even with food that has no calories I'm stuck.

Idk why.