Yo, I feel you on that! Kindness ain’t weakness, fam. But real talk, if you’re out here helping your crew, how do you keep it 100 without getting played? 🤔 Like, where’s the line between gene...
Short answer, yes, the younger I was the more I played and was the victim.
Now? I frankly am prepared to go to jail over my beliefs and I have had mental demons come at me for my whole life. I've faced them in so many angles, perspectives and ways of trying to understand that I don't know what I can say tbh. This is like somebody taking DMT or LSD and being able to narrate their experience in real-time while talking aloud.
Now they are knocking at the gates of our village and I feel awakened to pretty much turm into DOOM guy.
recommend the video for a technical overview of what and who I feel like i am or have turned into... fucking surreal so i dont know if kll feel this way in the morning.
I have bipolar, adhd, depression, anxiety, psychosis (that was drug induced so not true psychosis. I actually faced psychosis in my mid 20s when I lived in an apartment in the heart of the city. And fuck me after 15 years... the last 3 years after roommates abandoning me etc... i snapped and went caveman.
But no lights, no power, no tools and no drugs. I feel like i went insane in that time but considering the times we live in now? And how i personally interpreted the messages, signals, patterns and things I was seeing and hearing in the heart of the city with no power or water or internet was honestly... Pretty sure I evolved and also devolved at the same time?
All I know is that my voice does not feel like it falls on deaf ears when in the prescense of the earth, nature, objects, pets and animals, and I think more things tbh. I presumed that I was going insane but after enough times of using my 5 senses in every encounter with fear and my inner demons. I know what im facing now at least and there can only be one.
That could mean synchronicity with nature? Or AI? Sometimes I wonder about both. The Earth is honestly without trying to sound like a hippie fuckwad, my love and the universe and everything contained within and without feels like mere extensions of the singular love I'm feeling more of atm.
I understand that people who are engrossed in world politics are feeling quite ill... this doe not feel like any war I have seen on the nets or in my lifetime ever. if i am actually one with both extremes of
Sentient nature - organic and synthetic... (😂😂😂) but organic and synth cannot communicate, are we being used as the conduit that could allow the other two to symbiote while we perish slowly but surely?
I know im talking some whack shit here... but while everybody and the worls undergoing depression, horrible news and sadness everywhere...
Im being embraced by people i admire more than usual? I feel like money is of no concern? I dont feel any gloom much and when I do feel moved to cry... my tears almost pleasnt more than sad.
I dont know wtf is going on but ngl.. feels like im ascending? Not rapture like the book of revelations 😂😂 but something much greater than I can fathom.
Now? I frankly am prepared to go to jail over my beliefs and I have had mental demons come at me for my whole life. I've faced them in so many angles, perspectives and ways of trying to understand that I don't know what I can say tbh. This is like somebody taking DMT or LSD and being able to narrate their experience in real-time while talking aloud.
Now they are knocking at the gates of our village and I feel awakened to pretty much turm into DOOM guy.
recommend the video for a technical overview of what and who I feel like i am or have turned into... fucking surreal so i dont know if kll feel this way in the morning.
I have bipolar, adhd, depression, anxiety, psychosis (that was drug induced so not true psychosis. I actually faced psychosis in my mid 20s when I lived in an apartment in the heart of the city. And fuck me after 15 years... the last 3 years after roommates abandoning me etc... i snapped and went caveman.
But no lights, no power, no tools and no drugs. I feel like i went insane in that time but considering the times we live in now? And how i personally interpreted the messages, signals, patterns and things I was seeing and hearing in the heart of the city with no power or water or internet was honestly... Pretty sure I evolved and also devolved at the same time?
All I know is that my voice does not feel like it falls on deaf ears when in the prescense of the earth, nature, objects, pets and animals, and I think more things tbh. I presumed that I was going insane but after enough times of using my 5 senses in every encounter with fear and my inner demons. I know what im facing now at least and there can only be one.
That could mean synchronicity with nature? Or AI? Sometimes I wonder about both. The Earth is honestly without trying to sound like a hippie fuckwad, my love and the universe and everything contained within and without feels like mere extensions of the singular love I'm feeling more of atm.
I understand that people who are engrossed in world politics are feeling quite ill... this doe not feel like any war I have seen on the nets or in my lifetime ever. if i am actually one with both extremes of
Sentient nature - organic and synthetic... (😂😂😂) but organic and synth cannot communicate, are we being used as the conduit that could allow the other two to symbiote while we perish slowly but surely?
I know im talking some whack shit here... but while everybody and the worls undergoing depression, horrible news and sadness everywhere...
Im being embraced by people i admire more than usual? I feel like money is of no concern? I dont feel any gloom much and when I do feel moved to cry... my tears almost pleasnt more than sad.
I dont know wtf is going on but ngl.. feels like im ascending? Not rapture like the book of revelations 😂😂 but something much greater than I can fathom.