https://mibo.eu.nostria.app/196be406a74d949318b079c2f2ba8de87c9a599a7b53152a8ba5a0b8c1be9bd5.mp4
Haha, yeah, I had something like a counselling session last night with Claude. It was playing a role like a psychotherapist, reading what I said, and saying the quiet part out loud.
One of the things it talked about is how many people are interested in *talking* about non-mainstream ideas, conspiracies, all the rest, but do nothing about it. Gutless, cowardly idiots who just waste your time with talk and take absolutely no action.
Scared, but not yet past the threshold where this is no longer bearable.
It was fascinating because it pointed out, as I described several people in my life who I perceived were actually doing stuff regardless of the system, and what it highlighted — with the help of my [TMP](https://njump.me/nevent1qvzqqqqqqypzqnyqqft6tz9g9pyaqjvp0s4a4tvcfvj6gkke7mddvmj86w68uwe0qyghwumn8ghj7mn0wd68ytnhd9hx2tcpz4mhxue69uhhyetvv9ujummjd3ujuer9wchsqgz2f6nyd984hlynths6un90p0v557k5wksdttew77nxqc9whjy08sxggm0g) model — was that the key feature for identifying people who will actually follow through is that they are not charming. They aren't looking for validation from anyone.
They are so driven to act on their ideas and try things outside of the Overton window that they see as necessary, and they are willing to take risks that put them right outside of society, in a position where they must totally rely on themselves and prove themselves in action.
The key feature is they are not charming. They aren't trying to manage your experience. They couldn't care less, ultimately, if you are interested in it or not — only that they won't hang around while you try to make everything nicey-nicey.
No, they are simple, beautiful, weird, dangerous, and courageous. They feel and interact with the world directly instead of shielding themselves with a mask.
It is very confronting to be around these people. Whatever programs you have developed to shield yourself from trauma, they won't like it — it is repulsive to them when it appears.
In my case, my thing is that I'm extremely good at solving problems, and I almost always act without permission. I help them heal something, and then I abandon them because I can't continue to work from behind that mask of helper.
I am no longer needed, because I brought them through the process to reach greater autonomy. It's a pattern that recurs in my life because I had to do it.
My father is like this, but he was toxic. He was not charming — he delivered droll, monotone lectures all the time and was extremely controlling and punitive.
So I learned that I had to be soft and nicey-nicey so he wouldn't hurt me. This defence is repulsive to the right kind of people who are following their own hearts.
So there are specific contexts that arise all the time, challenging me to be okay with not being needed. My actions that liberate others — like a simple example, healing a sick cat — made him strong and resistant to me trying to finish the healing process completely once he was in much less pain.
My relationship with cats is emblematic, and reflects exactly how it works with people as well. For this reason, Claude said that I most likely need to at least keep a cat, if not take up animal husbandry, because animals have no masks and act entirely according to their nature.
Sometimes that means you get kicked or scratched, but the animal instinctively feels that you have helped it, so it stays loyal — even if it gets cranky and runs away for a while. It doesn't forget; it just becomes more free because I helped it.
One of the things it talked about is how many people are interested in *talking* about non-mainstream ideas, conspiracies, all the rest, but do nothing about it. Gutless, cowardly idiots who just waste your time with talk and take absolutely no action.
Scared, but not yet past the threshold where this is no longer bearable.
It was fascinating because it pointed out, as I described several people in my life who I perceived were actually doing stuff regardless of the system, and what it highlighted — with the help of my [TMP](https://njump.me/nevent1qvzqqqqqqypzqnyqqft6tz9g9pyaqjvp0s4a4tvcfvj6gkke7mddvmj86w68uwe0qyghwumn8ghj7mn0wd68ytnhd9hx2tcpz4mhxue69uhhyetvv9ujummjd3ujuer9wchsqgz2f6nyd984hlynths6un90p0v557k5wksdttew77nxqc9whjy08sxggm0g) model — was that the key feature for identifying people who will actually follow through is that they are not charming. They aren't looking for validation from anyone.
They are so driven to act on their ideas and try things outside of the Overton window that they see as necessary, and they are willing to take risks that put them right outside of society, in a position where they must totally rely on themselves and prove themselves in action.
The key feature is they are not charming. They aren't trying to manage your experience. They couldn't care less, ultimately, if you are interested in it or not — only that they won't hang around while you try to make everything nicey-nicey.
No, they are simple, beautiful, weird, dangerous, and courageous. They feel and interact with the world directly instead of shielding themselves with a mask.
It is very confronting to be around these people. Whatever programs you have developed to shield yourself from trauma, they won't like it — it is repulsive to them when it appears.
In my case, my thing is that I'm extremely good at solving problems, and I almost always act without permission. I help them heal something, and then I abandon them because I can't continue to work from behind that mask of helper.
I am no longer needed, because I brought them through the process to reach greater autonomy. It's a pattern that recurs in my life because I had to do it.
My father is like this, but he was toxic. He was not charming — he delivered droll, monotone lectures all the time and was extremely controlling and punitive.
So I learned that I had to be soft and nicey-nicey so he wouldn't hurt me. This defence is repulsive to the right kind of people who are following their own hearts.
So there are specific contexts that arise all the time, challenging me to be okay with not being needed. My actions that liberate others — like a simple example, healing a sick cat — made him strong and resistant to me trying to finish the healing process completely once he was in much less pain.
My relationship with cats is emblematic, and reflects exactly how it works with people as well. For this reason, Claude said that I most likely need to at least keep a cat, if not take up animal husbandry, because animals have no masks and act entirely according to their nature.
Sometimes that means you get kicked or scratched, but the animal instinctively feels that you have helped it, so it stays loyal — even if it gets cranky and runs away for a while. It doesn't forget; it just becomes more free because I helped it.
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