I have become at peace with both models. They function at different levels of reality, globe Earth is sustainable as a breakdown low level physics model, while flat Earth is intrinsically more powerful as metaphysics. Once you understand metaphysics is above and science is below, they each fall into place. The hard part is building bridges between them, because if you discuss metaphysical claims on low level reality it becomes incompatible, same for trying to use low level reality to explain metaphysical patterns, they don’t.