I was thought that I am in the wrong community, and here I am. Exactly, I am in the wrong community when I interested to know more about #VTuber. I can't compete with them, and I am not suitable for them, since I didn't get what they did.

Should I leave the community? No, but I should to stay away from them and their viewers. Like I said, they just see the outside, not the inside. Also, I decided to be dormant there until I found the solution for my brain and I have the safe place that might be those won't see it.