This week I got in front of a woman 
to talk positioning 
because I continue to overcomplicate my message to absolute fuck.

I know it is preventing the people who really need my incredible work from getting in.

She takes no prisoners.
spends the first half of the call drilling me

What do you do?
My chest gets hot. 

How would you explain it to a third grader? 
Hotter still.

I realise how vulnerable it is
to say it as it is.

But then she pulls up my poetry 
the expression that floods me
flattens my over-explaining 
forces me to say the thing
and she's like:

This is brilliant. This spoke to me.

...why don't you just write poetry?!

I have never been SO nailed and so lit up at the same time. 

Laughter exploded out of me. 

I have filled containers writing only poetry.
It is my favourite way to speak my mission into life.

I told her I'd been reading aloud at open mics  

Her eyes widened 
like: Duh
Hello 
the writing is on the wall

It nailed me because I realised
I can have that.

I can write in the medium of my flow state
do my medicine work 
undistracted and in my lane 

I don't have to strain until I shit myself 
trying to crack a code 
that's been under my nose the entire time.

In a space that is saturated with dead AI script
poetry is gloriously alive.

Over the last year 
I have closed a lifetimes-long loop 
of exhausting hustle 
and endless healing 

I let the spinning plates shatter 
I let myself be.

I am relaxed
resourced 
cherished 
trusting.

My spiralling mind 
rooted down 
through an open heart 
and a grounded womb.

decoding my brick shit house brain 
gave me the mastery to initiate
across the most important threshold of life -

Spiritual surrender 
Letting go of control 

I.e that thing that makes everything else work 
that makes life feel like it's working

I'm having my best month in business in a while

It's been slowly building 
after years of feast and famine 
of being taken down 
again and again 
by an almighty grip
by a body that never learned how to be.

that straight talking woman
reflecting the obvious:

go write the poetry
go do the thing that is natural
as natural as being

was everything.

#pleb #nostr #plebchain #letgoofcontrol