this account still mostly write-only.

I'm on a deathmarch to gtfo toward my next catsitting gig.

mood inverting to "-". I gained enlightenment 2y late. it's bleak as fuck. I get it now.

anyway I lost my best friend 4y ago (his bday was yesterday) and most of my means of coping, my mutual activating & eye-on-the-ball regime, and my venue for parallel engagement in the sapient work of continuous bootstrapping is still just … gone.

energy? who knows +/-. that's what drugs are for.