@Vinnewed Goblin True, I've finally started going to the gym after like a year but I push it late enough that afterwards I only have time to sleep, but that's on me

I think a major part of my problem is struggling badly with choices and commmitment (and hence going to the least effort choice of procrastination ) and a completely misplaced value and attribution to tasks subconsciously

( I think even stuff to pass time like read a book is treated as a task to do and that I treat a lot of everything else as a burden, made worse due to the fact I've a lot of choices on what I can do so we hit the prior problem)

Speaking of how long I've been somewhat aware of my flaws and how often I regress after some progress is why I feel I need external pressure to keep me on track since I can't trust myself to work stuff out