I'm starting to hate April. I found out today one of my best friends from when I was a kid just lost his son. We've been friends for 40 years. There's nothing I can say or do to make anything he's going through better. This time last year my son lost one of his friends from school. I spent the majority of April dealing with a teen who was struggling with trauma no one his age should have to experience. I'll probably delete this post tomorrow after I've sobered up a little, but fuck this shit.