@nprofile1q... I think I understand, just remember though that you are an ever-changing person, just like everyone else, you have limitless potential to grow as a person unless you decide simply to quit trying. Sure there will be misunderstandings, and maybe hurt feelings and even some bonds lost, but that doesn't mean you're a bad person. Don't give up on yourself, tomorrow is a new day and you absolutely can decide to change course, I won't lie and say its easy, but don't lose hope.