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Jack Rusher · 4w
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Jack Rusher · 4w
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beka valentine · 4w
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@nprofile1q... I've only used it a tiny bit.

We have 3 folks at Ink & Switch working on a plugin for Godot that adds Automerge-powered local-first collaboration with back compat for git. I've kicked the tires on that, but, like… I don't really like Godot? I dunno.

(for ref: https://backstitch.dev)
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last year, i had a little "dress rehearsal" for replacing a deadname with a chosen name.

and yet i still have accounts and such under the old "future of coding" name instead of the new "feeling of computing" one. alas.

so i guess i'm gonna be stuck with accounts under "ivan reese" for a loooong time. such is this life.
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Will I feel the same sense of alienation and disconnection? Will anyone ever look at me and guess correctly? Will I get beat up? Will I get a job instead of someone more deserving? When will I feel like I've done everything I can? Will I like having them? How long until they stop hurting? Have I made a mistake? Will the damage to my voice make it harder to train? Will I love what I become? Have I always been this way? Will this make life harder for my daughter? Have I always known? What have I always known? What will I never know? Which doubts were because of this, and which were something else? Will this change how I feel about death? Will this change how I feel about my hands? Am I sick? Am I cute? Am I pretty? Will a total stranger ever tell me I'm pretty? Will any of my close friends? Will my partner? Am I too late? Did I wait too long? Will he/she/they be sorry? Will they/she/he even know it was their fault I waited? Will I ever see her/them/him again? Should I have come here? If I'd have stayed, would I have figured it out sooner? Do I even want to be called "mama"? Would makeup help? Can I afford to do more? Is it worth the money to feel better? About my face? About my chest? About my arms? Would it have been, if I were younger? If I were younger, would I get surgery? Why don't I feel dysphoria about [that]? Why don't I feel dysphoria about [that]? Why did it take so long? Am I done? Is there more?




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Jack Rusher · 5w
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hi everyone!! i'm ivy

this is my re- #introduction

at this point in my life, three things matter most to me

three: i think computer programs are alive, and i'm sad that we make them out of text. to program — to be present with the computer — i want to see and touch things as they dance through space. i want execution to have rhythm i can feel. this is what i'm trying to make my career about.

two: i think songwriting is one of the more powerful forms of magic. my partner and i sing to each other, "when you put it in a song, that makes it true." songwriting is more than lyric and melody. it's laying in the grass at night and screaming to the stars. it's leaving your body and entering any instrument. it's pulling something out of yourself, turning it into culture, and living with it as the years go by and you change and you discover new ways that it means something about you.

one: i think companionship is so important that it overrules almost everything else you can do or be as a person. being aware of other people, and feeling their presence in your life, is essential to being a whole person. i would go so far as to say that the definition of "human" extends beyond the individual body and mind. i want to spend my life growing closer to everyone who will have me in theirs.

it's lovely to meet you. may our paths cross many times.
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J3RN :emacs: :haskell: · 6w
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beka valentine · 5w
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Jack Rusher · 6w
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Q for folks who live-code music (eg @nprofile1q..., @nprofile1q..., anyone else in the know)

Is there any cross-pollination between live-code / algorave and acoustic instruments? like does anyone ever do a set where there's like one person writing code and another person playing clarinet? has anyone done a live-coding set backed by an orchestra? any 5-piece jazz improv combos where one of the members is live-coding?